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Eмιly Fιɴcн ([personal profile] conifer) wrote in [community profile] thecapitol2015-10-03 09:01 pm

[OPEN]

Who| Emily and YOU
What|
Where| Around the Training Centre
When| A couple of days before the start of the Arena
Warnings/Notes| None inherent, will update as necessary


a) District 7 suite
Emily's dressed in the sort of clothes she'd only reluctantly wear for a fancy party, her hair piled high on her head. She looks out of place in the suite, especially as she's tidying and cleaning - disassembling the garden she's kept in one corner of the common area ever since she came back to the Capitol, something that's been her pride and joy, and has been her main distraction and source of therapy in mentoring. Today though, the plants are dug up, the soil swept and the wire displays dismantled, and Emily insists on doing it all herself. A few moments later she disappears into her room and comes back with her arms full of the intricate wood carvings she's put so much care and attention into, and dumps them into the bags with the plants, nodding to the Avoxes to take them away and dispose of them.


b) Out and about in the Capitol
Emily isn't certain what makes a 'good Capitolite'. A shallowness and self-absorption seemed to have a lot to do with it. But she was quite certain that she'd been offered citizenship because of qualities that were the exact opposite to that, ones that she had to admit that she hadn't seen in that many Capitol natives. It bothered her that she needed to stay true to herself while fitting in as one of them. Perhaps she was being unfair, and she was viewing them from the point of view of a Victor and moreover a Districter.

She goes to one of the high end shopping districts, wandering through stores and parks and finally seating herself in a restaurant, people watching all the while. Out here, a little of their eccentric nature seems to disappear, and they're not obnoxious Capitolites but just people. It's a surreal thing for her to accept.


c) The roof
The media didn't seem to have picked up on her panic attack at the Tribute Parade, something for which Emily was more than grateful. She wondered if Cyrus had anything to do with it, after all his offer of citizenship had come quickly after, and she was sure he'd wanted to keep a positive, Capitol-friendly image of her circulating. But even now, she couldn't get the District Tributes out of her mind, the bewilderment and despair on their faces as they realised that they were being sent to die, contrasted with the cheers of the audience.

She grips tightly onto the railing of the balcony to stop her hands from shaking, taking several long, deep breaths. "Get it together, Finch," she mutters. "They're not your people any more. You can't do this to yourself."


d) Closed to Beck
She shows up in the District Twelve suite without warning, and just stands and waits until Beck comes walking through, her expression stern and only a little less pained than when she'd found her in the bar the other night. She has no idea where they stand, and as much as she wishes she could postpone this indefinitely, she knows that she can't avoid Beck forever.

"It's time we finished our conversation."
beckstitch: (Luck runs out and hearts go cold)

d

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-03 09:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Beck stops dead, closes her eyes, and takes a deep breath. "Yeah," she says, unusually subdued, and bites her lip. "Yeah, I guess it is. Uh. You wanna come into my office?"

Unconsciously, she folds her arms around herself, as if that could ward off the conversation. She knows - she does know - that this isn't a conversation that ought to be avoided or put off. But she also knows that it's going to hurt, and it may end up destroying everything they had, and it's all her fault.

Also, she's already feeling fragile (not hungover any more, at least), and a small, selfish part of her just wants to call an end to everything right now, just so she can control it. Instead, she bites her lip, clears her throat, and nods towards her open office door.
beckstitch: (Oh heaven!)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-05 03:20 pm (UTC)(link)
"Congratulations!" Beck wasn't expecting that, and it shows in the smile that bursts like sunlight onto her face. She actually takes a half-step forwards to embrace Emily, caught in the moment, before she remembers that they aren't in a place for that and catches herself. "Are... are you gonna take it?"
beckstitch: (Know I'm far from perfect)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-05 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
That flinch makes the smile drop right off Beck's face, and she wraps her arms around herself as Emily goes on. She smiles again at the part about not being bid on, but it's smaller and less bright. "Congratulations," she repeats, quieter. "That's wonderful. Are you... I mean, do you have other accommodation?" Are you moving out? Are we even coworkers now?
beckstitch: (The truth won't make you happy)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-07 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
"Okay." Beck's quiet for a moment more, but can't hold her tongue for very long. She feels nervous, nervous in a way she hasn't felt since she was sixteen and stupid. At last, she blurts out, "Do you hate me for what I did?"
beckstitch: (Know I'm far from perfect)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-08 09:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Beck drops her eyes, biting her lip as she goes to sit at her desk. "That's almost worse," she admits quietly, closing her eyes. "Is this the part where I try to make excuses and then you dump me? 'Cause if so, can we fast-forward? Rip the band-aid off, you know?" She looks tired, more than anything, at the thought. "I wouldn't have done it if I'd thought it would hurt you. Or if I'd thought at all. I've got no excuse, I just... was drunk and needy and not thinking. And I'm sorry, for what it's worth."
beckstitch: (Know I'm far from perfect)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-10 09:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Beck takes a deep breath, closing her eyes and biting her lip. "Yeah," she says at last, her voice barely more than a whisper. "Yeah, I guess you're right. I just..." She swallows, opens her eyes again, but looks anywhere but at Emily. "I don't know what you want. If it's not sex, which, which I guess it's not. But it's not sex and it's not money and it's not fame so I guess I just... I don't know how to give you what you want. I don't know what that is."
beckstitch: (You're biting your tongue)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-14 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
She's quiet for a long moment, staring down at her hands, her forehead creased and tears starting to her eyes. At last, she says quietly, "I meant it, you know. That I love you. I didn't think... I thought maybe I couldn't love anyone, not really. I know for damn sure no-one's ever loved me, so where the hell would I learn it from?" Clenching her fists until her long acrylic nails bite into her palms, she looks up from under her false eyelashes. "It's not your issues that're the problem, okay? And I... I have friends, and if it's that or nothing I'll take it, but, Emily... I love you. I do."
beckstitch: (When you've given up)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-15 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Beck bites her lip, hard, looking down at her clenched fists. It takes her a moment to find her voice. "You can't give me what I want, maybe. I don't even know what I need. But... I mean, I've got a hand, you know? If I know not to stray, I can manage. I mean, I think I can."
beckstitch: (I just need you to confide in me)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-22 08:30 pm (UTC)(link)
"Hurt me?" Beck pulls a face. "Watching my Tributes lose hurts me. My bitch of a mother trying to hang on my coattails hurts me. Getting my fashions panned in the press doesn't hurt me, but only 'cause I'm past hurting over it. Trust me, Em, I can take what you can dish out."
beckstitch: (The truth won't make you happy)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-24 09:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Beck gives her a wary little smile in return. "Thanks," she says quietly, and bites her lip. "And... and I'm sorry. I really am."
beckstitch: (You're biting your tongue)

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-26 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Beck hesitates - hesitates for a long time, really, while the seconds tick by. She moves closer, though, like a wary animal, and finally, when she's sure Emily isn't kidding her somehow, goes for a hug.
beckstitch: (I just need you to confide in me)

wrap?

[personal profile] beckstitch 2015-10-29 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
Beck hugs her just as tightly, burying her face against Emily's shoulder and closing her eyes against the tears that threaten (she hates how she looks after crying, with swollen, bloodshot eyes. Not acceptable in the work day: not now, not ever). "Thank you," she whispers, up against the other woman's neck, and clings to her like a lifeline.