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I have regained my breath
Who| Aang and YOU
What| He's fresh out of the arena and he's a little ball of sad.
Where| Training Center; Roof, D4 suite, and everywhere else
When| Late 11th week of the mall arena.
Warnings/Notes| Sadness, references to child death, references to fictional genocide
D4 Suite
Aang woke up being able to hear again. There was no hole in his chest, and he could breathe.
He felt dead inside.
Dying was horrible. He could feel it--his soul, the Avatar spirit battering his chest, trying to escape, but trapped. He could feel himself dying in a way he wasn't meant to, without moving on to someone else. Would the Avatar cycle have been over had they let him stay dead, or would the Avatar spirit escape again once his body rotted and split open to allow it out?
Maybe it had moved on after the darkness overtook him. Maybe, for the briefest moment, he had been a waterbender baby. And then maybe he had died in his new mother's arms.
He staggers into the common area, blankly looking around, not looking all there. His legs feel wrong. His arms feel wrong. His lungs and ears feel wrong. Everything is wrong.
The Roof
It didn't take him long to realize that the autumnal equinox had come and gone. He was 113. It had been 101 years since the Air Nomads were wiped from the earth. Here, in this place of color and strange machines, after watching people die and suffer, without even the wind to whistle in his ears and guide him, he has never felt so alone.
He goes up. He finds stairs, and he goes up until he can't go up anymore. To the roof. The wind blows around him, but it doesn't speak to him like it should. He sits on the ground, overlooking all the towering buildings, buildings full of people who had laughed as they observed his suffering.
He sits down, hugs his knees, and lets tears flow silently down his face. Nothing. His struggles had been for nothing.
Aang takes a deep breath as the wind blows away his tears, and begins to sing. Those who observed him humming on Zuko's chest as he died would recognize the melody, but none of the lyrics are translated like everything else is. That is because there aren't lyrics--he lets out noises from deep in his chest, from high in his throat, making sounds that humans can't make without practice. He's imitating the wind, with its wails and puffs and whistles and moans. The lyrics are nonsense, and yet they mean everything to Aang.
It's the wind. It's all he has left of his people now.
Everywhere
After his grieving, it hits him that he's alive. And so will everyone else be.
His face is a little blotchy, but to hell with that. He's exploring, getting lost, getting found again, wandering into random districts and finding the common area and climbing onto dummies in the training area.
He is looking for friends, old and new and potential.
He doesn't have the Air Nomads, but he has them.
What| He's fresh out of the arena and he's a little ball of sad.
Where| Training Center; Roof, D4 suite, and everywhere else
When| Late 11th week of the mall arena.
Warnings/Notes| Sadness, references to child death, references to fictional genocide
D4 Suite
Aang woke up being able to hear again. There was no hole in his chest, and he could breathe.
He felt dead inside.
Dying was horrible. He could feel it--his soul, the Avatar spirit battering his chest, trying to escape, but trapped. He could feel himself dying in a way he wasn't meant to, without moving on to someone else. Would the Avatar cycle have been over had they let him stay dead, or would the Avatar spirit escape again once his body rotted and split open to allow it out?
Maybe it had moved on after the darkness overtook him. Maybe, for the briefest moment, he had been a waterbender baby. And then maybe he had died in his new mother's arms.
He staggers into the common area, blankly looking around, not looking all there. His legs feel wrong. His arms feel wrong. His lungs and ears feel wrong. Everything is wrong.
The Roof
It didn't take him long to realize that the autumnal equinox had come and gone. He was 113. It had been 101 years since the Air Nomads were wiped from the earth. Here, in this place of color and strange machines, after watching people die and suffer, without even the wind to whistle in his ears and guide him, he has never felt so alone.
He goes up. He finds stairs, and he goes up until he can't go up anymore. To the roof. The wind blows around him, but it doesn't speak to him like it should. He sits on the ground, overlooking all the towering buildings, buildings full of people who had laughed as they observed his suffering.
He sits down, hugs his knees, and lets tears flow silently down his face. Nothing. His struggles had been for nothing.
Aang takes a deep breath as the wind blows away his tears, and begins to sing. Those who observed him humming on Zuko's chest as he died would recognize the melody, but none of the lyrics are translated like everything else is. That is because there aren't lyrics--he lets out noises from deep in his chest, from high in his throat, making sounds that humans can't make without practice. He's imitating the wind, with its wails and puffs and whistles and moans. The lyrics are nonsense, and yet they mean everything to Aang.
It's the wind. It's all he has left of his people now.
Everywhere
After his grieving, it hits him that he's alive. And so will everyone else be.
His face is a little blotchy, but to hell with that. He's exploring, getting lost, getting found again, wandering into random districts and finding the common area and climbing onto dummies in the training area.
He is looking for friends, old and new and potential.
He doesn't have the Air Nomads, but he has them.
"everywhere", which is to say d9
He's not sure he expected someone this young.
It's hard to miss Aang, really. He stands out even among the other humans, and it's hard to mistake him; Feferi did say "bald kid with a weird marking", and that's spot on. He hasn't seen anyone else like him. He doesn't even know why the kid's here, but so long as he's here on District 9's level, he's not going to waste his chance.
And honestly, Sollux doesn't look much older. He's somewhere around 13 himself by human measurement. He's not worried about his species or anything else as he approaches, though he's not unaware of how they make him stand out. "Hey, can I talk to you?"
no subject
He looks up at the new strange creature who approaches him (or he approached, since it seems like he's intruded on another district), offering a weak smile. "Sure. What's your name?"
let me know if the lisp bothers you and I can type his dialogue normally
The thing is... that's the easy part. Now that he really looks at this human standing before him, he has to wonder how he got motivated to do what he did to Feferi - if indeed he is the one responsible. How many bald kids with weird head markings are around? He hasn't seen any yet, but...
Maybe he should just start there.
His face pulls into a frown as he finds his words. "I want to athk... In the arena, did you fight thith other troll - a girl like me - with long hair, finth, and hornth like thith?"
He holds his hands up, emulating the outward-pointing curve of Feferi's.
This works for me!
But then he asks that question. Aang's smile fades.
"Oh, right. Her."
He doesn't know if he is still angry at her or not. Zuko is okay. They are both alive and well. But she still killed him, and she did it even after they had given her a chance to just leave.
"Yes. I did."
He doesn't like what the rage did to him. For a second, he thought he could kill her. He doesn't want to be that person.
no subject
"I want to know your name," he says, "and what happened. She'th my girlfriend, and I didn't know about that fight until after."
His expression is complicated. He knows a little already from what Feferi told him, but not the whole, and that's his reason in even addressing him. His thoughts were more trained on other subjects than getting the full story from her about that fight.
Though, they are still in the common area... He looks around and frowns, then back to him. "Maybe in my block, though, inthtead of out here. If you'll tell me, I mean."
no subject
Aang gestures towards the suites. He knows the basic format of the district floors, at least.
"But I'll tell you about it, if you want me to. My name is Aang." He doesn't know if he wants to talk about it, but he attacked the girl. He should regret it, or at least feel guilty. Revenge is never the answer, and it was revenge he had been seeking when he attacked her.
But when he remembers the Zuko's dying face and the horrible shuddering of his chest, it becomes hard to feel guilty for lashing out.
I'm so sorry for his attitude, Aang just hit the worst luck
He was going to lead the way back to his room, but irritation prickles him into staying right where he is. His shoulders hunch up and his hands curl to fists, though his stance isn't aggressive.
"I athked becauthe I want to find out your take on it, nubthucker. Do you think I athk quethtionth for no reathon? Maybe I actually want to hear from the guy rethponthible why he beat my girlfriend almotht to death." And he remembers seeing her, how hurt she'd looked, for all he'd mistaken the course of events at the time. It makes his teeth grit, before he pushes himself to continue.
"Maybe I want to know how the fight thtarted. Maybe I want to learn about the other guy who wath there too. Maybe I don't want to thtrethh her out by making her remember thomething like that. Or maybe," and he flings his hands out, "I don't have time for your thmartathh attitude and you should jutht fuck off!"
I apologize for Aang's attitude as well
Normally, Aang would be patient. Not right now. Right now, he's at the end of his tether.
Any lightness abruptly leaves his expression and posture. His nostrils flare and his teeth clench. "Maybe I don't have time for your attitude, either! You think I like talking about it anymore than your girlfriend?" The word 'girlfriend' is spat out, shaking with anger. For a second, Aang's ready to hit the stupid horned thing in the face.
But Aang isn't one to consciously resort to violence over words. Instead, he backs up, as if the physical proximity will keep a fight from breaking out. "Did she tell you how she attacked us? We were minding our own business! We were just scavenging! And we told her--we said that she could go away, or we could just ignore each other, and we didn't have to fight, but she attacked anyway! And she got my friend! She got him with her shears!"
His eyes well up, but they're just as much anger as they are grief over Zuko.
"We got away, but there was nothing I could do! So I watched him die slowly and painfully!" It would have been easier. It would have been easier if she had just killed him cleanly. If he hadn't had to suffer. "I was so mad that I hunted her down. But in the end, I didn't want to kill her." His voice lowers again, his breathing heavy as he struggles to control himself. "I attacked her because I was mad. And I ran away again because I'm not going to kill. Killing wasn't going to bring Zuko back. Fighting wasn't going to bring him back either. So I ran away before the fight ended one way or the other, because I remembered that. Is that enough of my side of the story?"
Had Feferi done it to anyone else, she probably would have been murdered instead of just soundly beaten. Aang's nonviolent nature demands that he not deal mortal wounds, but oh,